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The Visitor
The first day we huddled together to stay warm. The sky was heavy with dust after the landslide. We’d been at the cemetery burying the little one, who was only a few days old when he died, who Erlinda, my wife, hadn’t had the heart to name. The children didn’t understand. Erlinda had stayed in town, still recovering. We lowered him into the earth. Then there was a shaking. The mountain broke free. I held our three children close to me. A stew of ice and rock and mud rumbled down the valley. We stayed at the cemetery that first night. Some of the coffins had been shaken from the earth. I made a lean-to with the planks of wood. The earth shook every hour or so, and I was a afraid. Only the summit of the cemetery hill was still poking out from beneath the slippery mud. There was just room enough for me and my children. On the second day, the sun came out, and the mud began to dry. I took two of the longest planks and told the children to wait for me. Efraín wanted to come, but I told him to stay and take care of his sisters. Help is coming, I said. I laid the planks out one in front of the other, and made my way across the mud toward where our house had been. I oriented myself by the plaza, which I could still make out. The tops of the four palm trees rose out of the mud, but the cathedral and the other buildings had been buried. I saw no one. The planks sunk a little into the mud as I walked. I stepped over the buried town. We’d moved here from the south end of the valley when it was time to start a family. We’d made a life here. I tended herds I did not own. Erlinda sold what she could in the market. We worked and we saved. We’d tried to buy a small plot of land on the eastern folds of the mountains, but been spurned. Those lands are reserved for important families, they’d told us, not for you. Just before the youngest was buried, we’d talked of leaving. To the city, to the sea. I remember Erlinda and her confusion. We worried about our children, about the future. We would never leave. This was home. It had been home. I made it, finally, to where my house had stood, to where my wife must have been buried. I’d taken a cross from the cemetery, scavenged from one of the wrecked graves. I planted it in the mud above my home. Erlinda, I prayed, had felt no pain and hadn’t had time to be afraid. She had died in her sleep, I prayed. Across the valley, the mountain sides were green and blooming. My children were hungry. I sat and prayed, and then took my planks and continued on toward the hills. I found herbs and fruits there, and grazing sheep and goats that now had no owner other than me. The sun warmed my cheeks. Across the valley, across the muddy strip of earth, I saw cemetery hill. The children sat together; I waved to them. We would be better off here, I decided. These were the best lands. I went back for the children. While the girls waited, Efraín and I made two more trips, crossing the thick mud with careful steps, carrying more planks. With the remains of the shattered coffins, we made a new home on the eastern slopes. In the weeks after, Efraín seemed to be growing every day, and I was proud. He took care of the girls. He made my life easier. The girls asked him about their mother, because they knew not to ask me anymore. Efraín gave them the same simple answer I had given them: that things were different now. This would usually set them crying, Mariela folding herself into her sister’s embrace. I would hold them, but I had nothing to give them. I tried to be strong. I dreamt of Erlinda every night. Each day, I went to see her, to tell her about the children, about our new home. I told her I missed her. Every week or so, I pulled the cross out and replanted it, so it wouldn’t tilt or lean as the mud settled. From our new home we could see everything, and everything, I told Erlinda, was ours: the cemetery hill, the four palm trees, the green eastern slopes and the grazing herds. Erlinda, my wife, was resting. Some days I stole away from the children. Efraín disappeared with his sisters to play and I to gather parachutes from the hillsides. I would find myself crying. I cried for the town and for my wife, for myself and the children. I cried for my fourth child, the buried child. The children seemed to have forgotten him: his smallness, his labored breathing, and even the events of that day. And I tried to forget him too: in the way of our grandparents, who withheld their love from a child until he had survived two winters. When I was Efraín’s age, I lost a sister. For a time, our home was quiet and heavy, but then she was buried and never spoken of again. The
children survived my moods. Sometimes I asked, “Do you remember
where we used to live?” and their blank stares told me they
hadn’t understood my question. I envied them and their youthful
amnesia. Under the sweep of mountain sky, I felt alone. So we stayed there, on the other side of the valley from the cemetery, on the foothills above the martyred town. Parachutes slipped through the heavy clouds, swinging gently in the passing wind. No one came to see the town or its graves. We waited. We were there when the visitor came. His name was Alejo.
He carried a bundle of clothes wrapped in a blanket. He’d
come from over the mountains, from the city. “I’ve
been walking,” he told me, “for two weeks.”
Alejo yawned as he sat, and I heard his bones creaking. “I
have news.” We sat in silence for a moment. “What do we have for our visitor?” I called to the children. We’d been inundated with aid, some of it useful, some of it less so. A box of oversized bathing suits from Holland. Postcards from New York that wished us well. A package of neckties from Denmark. I’d picked a red one, which I used to tie back my black hair. Efraín offered Alejo a selection of ties. Erlinda would have been proud. “Please take one,” he said, bowing ceremoniously. The visitor picked an orange tie, and smiled at me. He wore it as a headband, then picked a shorter green one, which he tied on Efraín. “We’re a tribe now,” the visitor said, laughing. Efraín smiled too. It was overcast, the sky a color of bone. The fog sank from the silver mountains. “How many did you lose here, friend?” the visitor asked. We could still see the cross. I pointed across the muddy plain at my resting wife. “Only one,” I said. Efraín had picked out headbands for his sisters. My children were a row of Danish neckties. “Only one,” they said in a chorus.
© Daniel Alarcón
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